Dementia for 2

My mom sent her youngest sister copies of the photos she and my sister took of Granny. My grandmother left my grandfather when "J" was 16. She is much older now, and still she harbors resentment over this. So much so, that she was not very nice to my grandmother when she lived close to her. Now she talks about coming to see her, but deep down we all know she won't.

Most of us are like my aunt. We have some sort of deep seated resentment towards a friend/loved one. The problem with this is, this resentment spreads over to our other relationships. In my aunt's case, the photos brought back to her memory the way she has treated my grandmother in the past. Whether or not she will act on this remains to be seen.

I have these same issues with my own sister. There are slight differences, but, the fact that we are not speaking seems to be a universal dilemma among most of us.

As I was listening to James MacDonald this morning, I realized that I have been using my own sister's words to keep me from revisiting the issue. I don't relish the thought of going to my sister yet again over this same issue. I am not even sure what the main issue is. I only know what the final issue is.

Time to think, pray, gather yourself before you approach a person is one thing. Time to brew and stew and live off your anger is something else entirely. God has been very merciful to me in this area. He has shown me my own shortcomings and has enabled me to work through my own anger,bitterness,and selfishness in regards to my sister's behavior. Am I done with all of it? I would venture to say that if you asked God that question about me, He would respond with a thundering NO!!

I wish I could say that I eagerly look forward to the next few days/weeks as I go to God to seek guidance. However, I do know that even in my reluctance, God will use this as a faith strengthening experience for me and I always look forward to that.